Happy Place

Elizabeth asked me for two things for her eleventh birthday: a copy of the first Harry Potter book and a trip to Disneyland. I hopped online to order the book and find out what park tickets cost these days, and discovered that right now SoCal residents can get a “2fer” ticket (Disneyland and California Adventure on different days) for the same price as a regular one-day ticket. I figured we could just about afford to get a hotel room and do both parks if we, like, ate oatmeal for supper for the rest of the month, so I ordered the tickets and told the kids the trip was a go.

They spent the next three weeks in a frenzy of excitement; they even dug out old souvenir maps of Disneyland and CA Adventure that I’d collected over the years and planned a detailed itinerary. This was the first time both kids were old enough and confident enough to really invest themselves in organizing the experience they wanted to have, and I found their joyful anticipation to be irresistibly contagious.

We invited a few other friends along, but various family illnesses forced them to cancel out. I was disappointed at first, but by the end of the trip I realized that for this particular outing at this particular time, the three of us really benefitted from having the bonding time all to ourselves.

Elizabeth’s birthday was actually on Sunday, but we’d planned to avoid the crowds by going to Disneyland on Monday and CA Adventure on Tuesday. This plan basically failed, because both parks were inexplicably jam-packed both days. I have no idea why and neither did any of the other disgruntled park goers who were muttering about how they’d come during the week specifically to avoid this sort of thing. We didn’t let it spoil our fun though — as soon as we realized that the kids’ meticulously planned-out itinerary would have us standing in line for hours at a time we just started making heavy use of the FastPass system and avoided long lines almost completely.

I have to admit that the first hour or two were awkward for me in a way that I hadn’t expected. I’m not sure why I didn’t see it coming, because loving Disneyland is one of the few things Steve and I had in common. We spent our honeymoon here, and went back every few years to celebrate birthdays and such. It had been more than fifteen years since I’d walked through The Happiest Place On Earth without his fingers laced through mine, or sat in a little boat or whatever without resting snugly in his arms. I wasn’t, like, wishing Steve was there with us this time, because eww, it’s just that he had been part of the whole experience for so long that it felt odd to be there without him. I’m probably not explaining it very well. Never mind.

Anyway, about an hour and a half after we arrived I mentioned some of this to Elizabeth. She didn’t say much, but for the rest of that day and the next she would slip her hand into mine now and then as we walked along, or snuggle up to me as we stood in the occasional line between FastPass rides. In short order I was thinking about how much I love this amazing child instead of thinking about the empty place at my side, and pretty soon the last traces of leftover awkwardness were gone and it was just fun again.

There were definite advantages to having just the three of us there. Strategic decisions were made quickly with minimal deliberation and we were all on the same page as far as what couldn’t be missed and what could be lived without. (Although I confess I do not find that giant floating marble in Tomorrowland as endlessly fascinating as Luke and Elizabeth do.)

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Most of the rides have been updated since the last time I was here. The Pirates Of The Caribbean has had some awesome effects added to tie it more into the movies; my favorite one was when the boats floated toward and into what appeared to be a waterfall with Davy Jones’ face projected onto it, talking to the riders as they passed through. I couldn’t see how the illusion was done until I actually went into the “waterfall” and realized that it was just a sheet of white fog with both water AND face projected onto it. Very cool. All of the updated effects on all the rides were very cool, with only one exception: the dynamite-chewing goat had been removed from the Big Thunder Mountain Railroad ride. I wonder if animal rights activists protested animatronic goat abuse….?

Probably the best makeover was at Tom Sawyer’s Island, which is now a Pirate’s Lair.

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Toontown has always ooged me out a little, but my kids revel in its over-the-top weirdness. Elizabeth especially was in her element here.

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All in all, a day of Cheshire grins:

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And this post is already too long, so I’ll save Day Two for the next one!

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Hits and Misses

So remember when I said that I don’t need any special events to show me how far Luke has come in the past six months? Well it turns out I get one anyway, because life is just that kind of awesome these days!

Luke has a history of being kind of a spaz at school. From day one he has found the whole environment there to be too noisy and chaotic and populated with untrustworthy sorts who were probably all Out To Get Him. It’s been…a challenge, for him and for his teachers and fellow students.

Over the past couple of months or so I’ve been getting an occasional Friday phone call from his teacher to tell me that he’s had a wonderfully good week. He’s been learning to sit quietly in class, do his work at the same time and in the same manner as the other kids, and play cooperatively with his peers at recess.

And today at the school awards assembly he was presented with a P.R.O. Award.

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It stands for People Respecting Others, and it’s awarded to students who have been exceptionally good citizens and demonstrated exemplary social skills. For Luke to have won it is huge. I could not be more proud of him.

And then there’s Elizabeth. She’s been having the sort of week that reminds me that underneath that marvelous veneer of brilliance and creativity there’s still a regular kid who from time to time can be as refreshingly goofy as the rest of us.

Conversation a few days ago in the car on the way home from the bus stop:

Elizabeth: “We’re learning about the colonists this week.”

Me [because sadly my geek brain instantly jumped to various colony planets in the Star Trek ‘verse and I was pretty sure her class wasn’t studying any of those]: “Really? Which colonists?”

Elizabeth [pausing in a “busted” sort of way because she was probably thinking about dragons or something while the teacher was talking about the colonists in question]: “Um…the…um…the colonists in the American Revolution?”

Me: “Oh! The American colonists, okay.” Duh.

Elizabeth: “Our class is divided up into groups. I’m in the ‘colonists’ group. We were supposed to write letters today. I wrote a letter to the colonists telling them not to do the Boston Tea Party.”

Me: “Really? You don’t think the colonists had a right to protest being taxed without governmental representation?”

Elizabeth: “….”

Luke: “She just thinks it’s too girly and she doesn’t want to have to do it.”

Me: “Too…girly…Elizabeth, you weren’t really listening to the teacher when she was talking about the Boston Tea Party, were you?”

Elizabeth: “Um…possibly not completely….”

Me: [Gives a brief description of the colonists dressed as Indians raiding the ships and dumping the tea into the harbor and why they did it.]

Elizabeth: “Oh.”

Me: “You were picturing a bunch of old guys in powdered wigs and, like, frilly aprons — ”

Luke: “And their dolls!”

Me: “…And their dolls, sitting around sipping tea?”

Elizabeth: “….Something like that. Yeah.”

Elizabeth has been having That Sort Of Week. The topper came yesterday at recess when she decided to find out what would happen if she let go of the swing chains in mid-swing. Luckily that part of the school playground is on sand rather than asphalt, so she got away with some impressive abrasions on her face rather than a fractured skull.

Today when she received her Bookworm Award she looked like she’d just gone a few rounds with a belt sander.

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And somehow in that moment I finally saw a resemblance between us.

The tomboyishly scraped-up face, the certificate officially recognizing her bookworm status…yes. That was me at ten-going-on-eleven.

Take that, aliens! You MISSED a couple of my genes when you were replacing them with your extraterrestrial DNA!

Yeah, this is why I have a blog. So I don’t say stuff like that out loud at school awards ceremonies.

Luke and Elizabeth? You guys rock.

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“You’re on a first-name basis with Lucidity. I have to call him Mr. Lucidity, which is no good in a pinch.”

I’ve decided that when I can’t think up a clever title for a blog post, I’m just going to use a random quote from “The Tick.” It’s all good.

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So, somewhere around here is the One Year Anniversary of the day Steve and I first separated. I didn’t write down the date or anything, but it was during the week before Elizabeth’s tenth birthday and she’ll be turning eleven on Sunday.

This has been far and away the most educational and transformational year of my life. There has been so much new information crammed almost nonstop into my brain in the past twelve months that I wake up most mornings feeling like a slightly different person than the person I was the morning before. The last eight months have been especially eye-opening. The last TWO months have been…well, you get the idea: the more I learn, the more doors open around me to reveal even more stuff to learn. It’s dizzying and liberating and at times remarkably painful.

I do wish to clarify that this hast NOT been the most painful year of my life. Not even in the top five. Possibly not in the top ten, because I’m pretty sure all the “winners” in that category fall before 1996. Truth be told, every year since I first moved in with Steve has been a Disney-themed cakewalk compared to the soul-crushing horror that my mother delighted in inflicting upon her offspring at every opportunity. Just want to be clear on that, in case anyone is wondering why I stayed in what was obviously a dysfunctional marriage for nearly twelve years: it was better than where I’d come from, and it’s not like I had a point of reference for what a healthy home life was supposed to look like. (And I suppose in Steve’s defense neither did he. Bummer for both of us.)

Whoops, little digression into Bitter Country there. I’d meant for this to be an upbeat, cheerful post, because that’s my prevailing mood these days. As overwhelming as the unrelenting flow of Here’s Something ELSE You Didn’t Know! has been at times, I remain grateful for the ever-broadening perspective on life, the universe and everything that the past year has offered me.

Here’s to clarity. Here’s to moving forward.

And while I’m on the subject, here is the most brilliantly useful bit of wisdom that I’ve acquired this year. I’m going to share it because I wish someone had told me this decades ago:

The only people who demand forgiveness for the harm they’ve done, who go on and on about how good Christians are supposed to be infinitely forgiving of all transgressions, are the people who have NO INTENTION of ever changing their harmful behavior. They NEED to be forgiven by their victims so that they can go right on victimizing them.

People who have genuinely repented of their selfish, destructive ways and want to change do not demand forgiveness from the folks they’ve hurt. They just STOP HURTING THEM and start being productive, compassionate human beings and let nature take its course. They offer selfless love instead of abuse or neglect, and they understand that healing takes time and patience.

Believe it. Jesus never meant for you to spend your life suffering so that some self-absorbed manipulator can feel powerful.

You’re welcome.

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Wordless Wednesday: Plum Hopeful

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Wordless Wednesday: First Signs

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