It’s probably a good thing my Internet’s been down for the past few days so I couldn’t blog anything; sometimes that cooling-off period makes a big difference in what actually makes it online.
It was a pretty epic post though.
So. Where do I begin?
Recently I’ve been forced to come to terms with some things about Steve that I simply did not want to see during our marriage, even though they were right there in front of me. This isn’t a subject that I want to get deeply into on a public blog, but it has some major potential to threaten the physical, mental and emotional health and safety of my children, so it’s been weighing pretty heavily on my mind this past week.
And while I was mentally wrestling with this concern my sister sent me an email saying that our mother is in the third stage of renal failure and is basically circling the drain. And all I felt about that was relief. My mother is a poisonous sociopathic parasite, not to put too fine a point on it, and the world will be a cleaner and safer place when she’s out of it. I hadn’t been in touch with my siblings in months, but the day after that email my brother called me (collect) and asked me to pass a message on to my sister, so I called her, and during the course of that conversation she casually mentioned that she (her word was “we,” so she meant she and my brother at the very least) had known all along that Steve was fucking around with other…people (I really wish I could just type “women” here, but that would be, as they say, only half the story)…all throughout our marriage, and had COVERED FOR HIM.
Do you hear that sound? That is the sound of me finally hitting the end of the amount of outrageous personal betrayal that I am willing to tolerate from my batshit-crazy blood relatives. And there’s a FUCKING LOT of outrageous personal betrayal leading up to this point, let me assure you. I will leave my siblings in my address book just long enough to send them the URL of this blog post, and then I’m finished with the lot of them. I’m just…done there.
Okay, I think that’s all for today. Mighty pretty weather we’re having lately, isn’t it? I really think spring is right around the corner.